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14 August 2010 @ 06:45 pm
"Friends help you move. Real friends help you move bodies."  
I got off the phone with wiliqueen a bit ago.  She hugged me through my tears as best as the telephone allows.  May I offer virtual hugs and hand-holding all around?

susanmgarrett has died.  We were so very rich in having her while we did.

Susan was always gracious, kind and patient with me.  She was responsive and generous.  For many years, I've aspired to someday be as gracious as Susan in fandom, if I were lucky and tried hard for what seemed to come naturally to her.  (Not to mention aspiring to write like her!)  I met her in person only once, at Syndicon East '97; I remember her relating that publishers were asking her, "You do write things other than vampires, don't you? Vampires are over, and they're not coming back."  She was working on an Egyptian fantasy, then.

There are newbies on my f-list.  Rejoice that you have the delight of reading Susan's fanfic for the first time still ahead of you!  Mourn the void of never seeing her post.  Susan was the author of the second pro FK novel, Intimations of Mortality, of course, but even more importantly, you see, she was Empress of FK Fic, the most outstanding and prolific author Forever Knight has ever been privileged to see (Susan's Bookshelf).  She was also... Susan.  Incomparable.  Many people gave and gave and gave to our beloved FK fandom, but no one quite as much as Susan.  Stories. Zines. Challenges. Buttons. Time. Hospitality.  Patience with pesty little newbies like me, a lifetime ago.

Her birthday was Wednesday.  We used to celebrate August as Susan's Birthday Month on fkfic-l, with new fiction in her honor.  I'm gonna, um, go write a Janette story, you know?

If I ever get to heaven, I expect Noble Mind to be finished there.  And I expect it to be spectacular.

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One Whose Honesty is Stronger Than Her Fear: griefamilyn on August 15th, 2010 02:01 am (UTC)
This is the most beautiful and apt eulogy I've seen yet. Thank you for saying so well what I couldn't put together in my head.
Amy R.: Hugbrightknightie on August 15th, 2010 03:00 am (UTC)
connection is comfort

Thank you very much for the compliment.

I knew Susan was sick, and I knew it was bad, but not how very bad. I so wanted to ask what others knew, but I couldn't talk about it because what little I knew was under f-lock. Should I have broken that confidence? Looped people in? Today, I don't know.

I still expected to get to chat with her again sometime, to recommend one of her stories and be thanked for "remembering" her work -- as if any of her readers ever forget sharing her stories!
Foxy11814foxy11814 on August 15th, 2010 02:03 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear this. I never spoke to her online or in person, but I very much enjoyed her novel and fanfiction. You can't really search "Forever Knight" without her name popping up. She's an icon of the FK fandom, and I know she will be missed by many, by friends, family, and strangers alike.
Amy R.: IBbrightknightie on August 15th, 2010 03:08 am (UTC)
Susan G.
Thank you for sharing the sentiment. Susan was like a patron saint to FK fandom; all honor to her generosity and grace as well as her creative skills.
skieswideopen: FK: Janetteskieswideopen on August 15th, 2010 02:23 am (UTC)
Oh no! That's awful! I never had the privilege of interacting with her, but I remember her work, of course. So very sad for those who knew her, and a terrible loss for FK fandom.
Amy R.: Janettebrightknightie on August 15th, 2010 03:04 am (UTC)
sorry to be the bearer of bad news
Yes, absolutely. We were so very, very lucky to get to share in her talents and spirit. We are sadder and smaller without her.
waltdwaltd on August 15th, 2010 07:50 am (UTC)
Susan M Garrett
Well, that hit me like someone ripped a piece of me out of my gut.

I didn't know Ms. Garrett, but you sure can't be involved with FK without knowing of her. I didn't get involved in fanfiction till about 3 years ago, and her name and influence is right there in front of you without even trying. Her stories make being a fan of a long ended TV show worthwhile.

My sympathies, prayers, good thoughts, etc. to her family and friends.
Amy R.: Janette Againbrightknightie on August 15th, 2010 08:23 pm (UTC)
Re: Susan M Garrett
Thank you for sharing and for your sentiments. Not just FK, but all of fandom, was blessed as well as graced by Susan's presence. She was among the very best of us all, not only as a writer but as a human being.
PJ1228pj1228 on August 15th, 2010 11:53 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear about Susan's passing. I never had the opportunity to meet her in person or correspond with her, but her fiction is well known. I think I still haven't read all of her stories yet. Among my favourites are A Lamentation for strings and her work for the virtual 4th season Resurrection" and Nature of the Beast.

My thoughts are with her family and friends.
Amy R.: Readsbrightknightie on August 15th, 2010 08:29 pm (UTC)
such wonderful stories she shared with us
Thank you for sharing your kind thoughts, and for sharing the recommendations, too. I remembered "A Lamentation for Strings," but I would have forgotten to mention the Virtual Fourth Season!

I don't yet know how to get a message to her family. I'll be on the lookout for that, if that's something they want.
greerwatsongreerwatson on August 15th, 2010 04:03 pm (UTC)
Such sad news. I did not know she was ill. Since I am too new to active Forever Knight fandom to have personal memories of the "Empress of FK Fic" in the heyday of her involvement, I mostly remember her as a woman who was keenly concerned to record our history before it got forgotten. It was she who got me involved in the FK Wiki, and did an enormous amount of work there herself—much of it very boring, repetitive, and lengthy stuff, including pages for literally hundreds of stories.

When I first got on line, I quickly learned that the name "Susan Garrett" meant a good, solid read. We've lost her, but not her fan fiction. As you say, her stories will be her principal legacy to those too new to fandom to remember her personally.
Amy R.: Janettebrightknightie on August 15th, 2010 08:40 pm (UTC)
every corner of fandom
Thank you very much for sharing your memory of her work on the FK Wiki. There seems to be no corner of our fandom into which Susan's generosity, graciousness and energy did not reach, and as the memorial posts begin to spread out, I see more and more mentions of times she gave whatever was needed to smooth over the rough spots in a bad day or a rough stretch, making lives better all around.

>"We've lost her, but not her fan fiction."

It took a day to occur to me, but now I am thinking of the possibility that her own site, Susan's Bookshelf, will vanish when that account bill goes unpaid. It's on Earthlink. Not everything on her site is also on other archives (for example, "Noble Mind," the unfinished third Dorian novel). I downloaded all her stories to my hard drive years ago, for personal reading, the first time she talked of letting her site lapse.

You duplicated many sites at the time of the Geocities disintegration. Might you be consider saving a copy of hers, just in case, in preparation for a day hers might also vanish? I'm not sure what's involved; I apologize if I am asking something difficult or inappropriate by this thought.
greerwatsongreerwatson on August 15th, 2010 09:22 pm (UTC)
Susan's website
In fact, being a precautionary type, I have already got some of her site saved. Since last year, I've tended to make quick copies of FK sites I know of, just in case. However, I usually only do a quick'n'dirty copy without taking the time to edit it. So I have to do that now to be sure it runs okay—and to be sure I didn't miss anything! In fact, even before you mentioned it, I'd already put it on my priority list.

We've lost so many sites. Susan's is far too important to let slip away by default. There is no way your suggestion could be inappropriate.
greerwatsongreerwatson on August 16th, 2010 07:04 am (UTC)
Re: Susan's website
Okay, the Earthlink site with Susan's fan fiction is now safely tucked away. I picked up a few things I'd missed, got everything sorted into the proper folders, made sure all the internal links were relative ones, and corrected a few broken links (typos, etc.) as well. It seems to be running properly on my computer.

So, if/when her site goes down, it won't be lost.
tonjavmooretonjavmoore on August 18th, 2010 05:53 pm (UTC)
Re: Susan's website
At the request of her parents and siblings, I am creating a site in her honor. This is my fan fiction name. I'm actually Vicci Varner, who was privileged to be her friend and roommate since 2002. (We actually met a couple of years earlier.)

It's hard not to think she'll be coming down the stairs, scolding me for not eating, and ask me the last time I had a drink of water.

We'll all miss her. I will post when the site is ready.

Amy R.: Hugbrightknightie on August 19th, 2010 02:57 am (UTC)
Re: Susan's website
It's nice to meet you, Vicci/Tonja. I'm so, so sorry about the circumstances.

Thank you very much for undertaking a site in Susan's honor, and thank you very much for letting us know to look forward to it. I'll watch your blog to be sure to see your announcement when the time comes.

Susan's fingerprints are on just about everything we love in FK fandom, so much joy and fun and grace. We owe her, and learn from her, always.
(Anonymous) on August 17th, 2010 02:49 am (UTC)
Such sad news
I was mostly a little nobody back on FORKNI-L, and I was SO happy that I recently stumbled on your site, Amy, and discovered this treasure chest of fan fiction old and new. I'm really, really sad to read about Susan, who I never knew but whose writing I've always sincerely admired. :(
Amy R.: Guest Starbrightknightie on August 17th, 2010 04:51 pm (UTC)
Re: Such sad news
Everyone is somebody on FORKNI-L! :-) Do we know each other from there?

You're very welcome here, and I'm glad that my site has been some use to you! The recommendations project tries to pass on the favor that other fans did me when I was a raw newbie, pointing out some of our great authors and stories.

Thank you for sharing your sentiments on Susan's loss. Her stories are a joy forever, but we're going to miss the grace and generosity of her presence.
(Anonymous) on August 18th, 2010 09:06 pm (UTC)
Re: Such sad news
I definitely remember your name. I'm Lisa W. I was pretty active there, I guess, and wrote a few fanfics (the first, and only, ones I've tried!). And yes, I love this place! There's a lot that has been written since the last time I checked in long, long ago. :)
Amy R.: Gracebrightknightie on August 19th, 2010 04:26 am (UTC)
Re: Such sad news
I'm very sorry that I'm not immediately remembering you -- what was your affiliation? -- but I'm hoping that it will come back to me shortly! In fact, according to the dear Formerly Known As "The FTP Site", we had at least two "Lisa W"s: are you perhaps behind Door #1 or Door #2?