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30 November 2008 @ 08:42 am
Prayer: Abby A. in Hospital  
[Cross-posted from ForKni-L.  And if you're on a Horsechick's f-list, you've doubtless seen the news there.]

Good friend and FK Fan tv_elf, whom you'll remember as a Merc and a FoD from the old days, and whom you may have met at Bridging the Knight or any Vividcon, or perhaps from her most recent FK fanfiction, has been in the hospital since Friday night.

We are not yet ready to lose her, not by a long shot.  If you're inclined to pray, please include her now.  Please.

Thank you very much.  I've never before gone the prayer-request route on forkni-l, but needs must.

 
 
 
One Whose Honesty is Stronger Than Her Fear: happy endingamilyn on November 30th, 2008 04:58 pm (UTC)
I admit I'm not ready for Abby not to be around to talk to. But I am hoping that this works out as is best for her. I want her to be comfortable and I want her to be at peace and happy and not in pain and not restricted from the work and friends and things she loves. If she can come through this and still have those things...and if she can't.... I just don't want her to suffer and linger and lose more and more.
Amy R.: Schankebrightknightie on November 30th, 2008 05:24 pm (UTC)
Schanke icon for Abby.

It sounds like you're in a very mature place right now. I know I'm selfish.

I will work my way up to "thy will (not mine) be done." But right now, I want Abby to still be here with us. Back to the health of a month ago, or better yet back to the health of a decade ago. I want to see the next Trek movie with her in a theater. And the one after that. I want to know what she thinks of the new straight-to-DVD HL thing with Joe on it.
One Whose Honesty is Stronger Than Her Fear: downandsafeamilyn on December 1st, 2008 12:37 am (UTC)
You know...I figured out in the car just after I commented that this was the only thing I could do for Abby. I could never help make her better, I could not make her have less pain, more mobility, less frustration...the one thing I could do for her at a time when she's ill is to let her know that, as much as I'll miss her, it's all right for her to go.

As I got home I got the call from [Unknown LJ tag] that Abby was blessed with a gentle death...and all I can think is how happy I am for her that it was quick and peaceful. All I can do is cry, but my tears are for me...her not being on IM is such a strange concept, no posts and jokes and all the things I'll want to share with her... So I'll have to tell her differently now.

I think she'll be at the theater with you for the next Trek movie. She might even try to knock over your popcorn if you don't hold onto it. *hugs*
Amy R.: Castbrightknightie on December 1st, 2008 07:16 am (UTC)
Thank you.

Abby was always there when I needed her, and at some point I forgot to stay ready to not need her. I never gave her the gift you describe, of knowing it was okay to go. I hope that simply forgetting she was probably not going to outlive me was some kind of gift in its own way, some days.

I'm no good with words yet. It will take a while. But thank you very much.
One Whose Honesty is Stronger Than Her Fear: downandsafeamilyn on December 3rd, 2008 03:52 am (UTC)
I hope that simply forgetting she was probably not going to outlive me was some kind of gift in its own way

I KNOW it was...and that was a gift *I* was never able to give her.

We complemented each other quite well.